ever hear the stories that jesus sometimes takes the form of a human just to test us? like that begger in the streets that you didn't give money too? well that could've been jesus... and that time when you didnt' help that old lady with the heavy shopping.. well.. that could've been jesus.
and it may not have been.
i dont like it when people, or even my own brain plays these mind games of guilt. i never wanted to be guilted into helping someone or doing something alturistic. it's something that even now i'm very adamant about... espcially when doign good.. it should never be forced. right?
that's why sometimes i just feel weird whenever i do something that's 'good' when it comes to doing it in front of people... you know?