isn't it weird when you would want something you know you shouldn't. there are many different levels, ranging from wanting to partake in whatever sin is tugging at you... to wanting that ice cream bar after dinner. there are many things that 'tug' at me and make me FEEL like I NEED whatever it is i'm looking at. let me explain.

on monday one of my co-workers reached the tender age of 30 and i was selected to be part of the gift buying team. we set out and went to the nicer part of town to really find something good.. cuz 30 is a special age. we started off by going to one of the bigger, if not best Agnes B stores. i don't know if any of you shopped in these kind of boutiques.. but MY LORD the things in there were nice. i'm not talking that item of clothing, or that cut.. EVERYTHING was nice. i was amazed at the things that felt that i would have bought if i had the cash. not only that, the people working there were beautiful too, the cute little man, then stylish hair-designer till man, the cute japanese looking sales girl... i was like.. DUDE.. i wanna work here.... the clothes were very nice... and sadly i found myself totally desiring to be back in that life style, looking beautiful, brand name envy and pretentious conversation...

we moved on to another new department store that has special in bring the most trendy stores from US and UK. it was so weird to see stuff like wrangler, banana, miss sixty and others.. they had these really dope looking gifts stores that just had some nice gadgets.. it was like a huge urban, but a more fancy.. and thus more expensive.

i basically left this whole shopping spree thinking to myself that ever since becoming christian and making my own wages.. spending to me has changed. i haven't been able to just buy brand names and high quality stuff just cuz i wanted to.. now i gotta save and watch the pocket, or i'm eating at home for the next month. it's a process.. of yes... growing up.. but i haven't even SHOPPED like that.. or even WINDOW shopped like that for a long ass time.. and it left a weird impression on me.

i hate desiring things that are out of reach and suck. wanting to dress in the nicest clothes is probably the dumbest thing a person of my monthly packcheck could want. i hate even looking on these kind of things, and i haven't for over a year. seriously.. over a year. but one hour of solid walking through the best it has to offer. versace, armani, anges B, the dept. store... shoot, even banana, and all that crap. i was clearly thinking how NICE would it be to have that stuff.

last night in my cell/home group (named PLUS from here onwards) we looked at this:

Rules for Holy Living

1Since, then, you have been raised with Christ, set your hearts on things above, where Christ is seated at the right hand of God. 2Set your minds on things above, not on earthly things. 3For you died, and your life is now hidden with Christ in God. 4When Christ, who is your[1] life, appears, then you also will appear with him in glory.
5Put to death, therefore, whatever belongs to your earthly nature: sexual immorality, impurity, lust, evil desires and greed, which is idolatry. 6Because of these, the wrath of God is coming.[2] 7You used to walk in these ways, in the life you once lived. 8But now you must rid yourselves of all such things as these: anger, rage, malice, slander, and filthy language from your lips. 9Do not lie to each other, since you have taken off your old self with its practices 10and have put on the new self, which is being renewed in knowledge in the image of its Creator. 11Here there is no Greek or Jew, circumcised or uncircumcised, barbarian, Scythian, slave or free, but Christ is all, and is in all.
12Therefore, as God's chosen people, holy and dearly loved, clothe yourselves with compassion, kindness, humility, gentleness and patience. 13Bear with each other and forgive whatever grievances you may have against one another. Forgive as the Lord forgave you. 14And over all these virtues put on love, which binds them all together in perfect unity.

Colossians 3:1-13

i love 2, set your mind on things above... and not earthly... oh man... how is God so amazing that he'll just have me go through this on monday, pray about for the whole week... then on thursday he chooses the most amazing scripture to study? it was almost a crazy answer to prayer.. better then anything i could script up.

anyways.. i'm back from the blogout.. i got my archives back.. blogger is SO cool. gonna try and fix up my page a little more. take care and God bless!... it's freak'in FRIDAY!!


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